After all that we have been through...all the waiting, the ups and downs, the anticipation, the defeat, the heartbreak and the joy...... It is time to travel! We have received our Travel approval and will be heading to China real soon!
One would think that we would be ready. Not physically but mentally. But I told my husband the other day, "I'm not ready!" He said, "How can you not be ready? We have been waiting 6 years!"
It is a strange feeling but it's the truth. Some of these feelings come from the fact that I am not a good traveler. I get achy,cranky and restless. Some of it comes from fear that she won't bond with us. Some of it comes from my fear of being a "girl" mom. Silly, I know. But it's the truth. I just pray she feels the love that has been bursting out of our home since we first saw her face. Little Run Run. :) Even when I think of all of my fears and doubts, future struggles we will face, I know it is worth it.
It is worth is because we are giving this little angel a true home where love will surround her.
It is worth it because she will have a family where she is accepted unconditionally.
It is worth is because she will feel protected and safe from harm.
It is worth it because even though it has been very, very difficult for us with many bumps in the road, we are being faithful to what we feel God has led us to do.
The seed in my heart that was planted when I was just a little girl, is now ready to be harvested.
Thank you God, for allowing me to be a part of such a wonderful thing.
It's time to come home, Little Run Run! :)